Left of the middle.

tenaugusttwentyeleven

2011-08-11T13:02:00.007+08:00

10 august. it was to be the most devastating day of my life. you left to serve the nation with a phone that has only 3 bars. when 11 pm came, it was 2 bars for the calling which dint even happen, then 1 bar. 1 bar for 9 nine days. :( i miss you so much baby.

lets keep you updated babycakes. <3 the morning we left :((, papa drove us to some motorbike workshop(guess its to survey something for the babysister). i excused myself to go home after that since i wasnt feeling too well. i feel like puking each time i think of the fact that i do not have you around for like the next 10 days. i reached home & drowned myself in tears trying to fall asleep so time could fly really fast & then hope its time to see you again. i woke up 10 minutes late to break my fast, nobody woke me up. again it dawned in me that its just been only 7 hours that passed since i last saw you & ive got like 92347892357hours left till we meet again. food dint make me happy that day. somehow the chicken tasted funny, the bread smell bad, the drink was tasteless. i know i sound like im exaggerating, but truth is i cannot stand being without you. i needed you so badly i kept wondering if your superiors are nice, the senior boys are treating you well, whether youre eating enough, whether 0r not your rest is sufficient. sigh. life cannot get any harder than this & the same fateful day, there just had to be fight at home involving me.

im typing this during lunch break & i thought maybe i'll just keep updating here for the next 9 days before you come back right to me. i cannot wait to see you again sweetcheeks, i swear. i'll pray to Allah time will go by so fast, i'll be seeing you as soon as tomorrow. i love you so much honeybuns. <33

2011-01-16T18:03:00.003+08:00

I LOVE MUHAMMAD HAFIZ BIN MUSA.

& i am missing you so much, Why does work have to take you away from meeeeee. Bleagh. :(

birthday with love; it feels like magic

2011-01-16T02:12:00.000+08:00

I wish you were here

2010-11-27T22:00:00.002+08:00

Just maybe;

I could do with a little concern. I miss you.

if Black is the colour to describe it, then Black it shall be.

2010-11-27T10:32:00.006+08:00

It has never been easy all this time. Never been, but just that this time, it feels much worse than i thought. & when i thought ive got the hang of everything, thats when things start to turn the other way around. I thought maybe karma if that was even karma, shes done with her deeds & was about to leave but then again, guess i was wrong. I have no idea what im doing, sitting up so early in the morning rattling off like this. I woke up to a text that got me thinking real hard. Is this even real? I am somewhere where noone wants to be. Won't you please come get me, save me, please. :'(

Where are you now?

2010-11-12T19:03:00.000+08:00

if only;

2010-11-10T16:35:00.002+08:00

if i could change fate, i would ask to be reborn again & meet you on the same night we first fell eyes on each other. i am willing to go through everything again with you, every single day of my life. i miss you yesterday, today everyday. i miss you Muhammad Hafiz Bin Musa.

until i get back what ive lost, im going to be hard on myself.

2010-11-10T12:37:00.000+08:00

i want you to know, with everything i wont let this go.

2010-10-14T14:18:00.005+08:00

because i have not been out here that long. & so i missed out on so much about the how boyfriend feels about me. love can be bought, so it seems. i should know where to go to, where to run now when im lost, when i dont understand whats going on. i pray God give you happiness & all that youve never felt, never had for this girl who is with you gave you none.

im sorry, love.

for the sake of our love;

2010-05-05T02:12:00.001+08:00

let's backtrack, please.

You can put the blame on me.

2010-03-22T05:23:00.004+08:00

It was a mistake i know will sting you for a very very long time. I broke your trust again, at the most most most vulnerable stage of our relationship. I have realised how much it has cost us. I do not want to go through something like that again.

Forgive me, love.

Icannotaffordtoloseyoubaby.

well, nobody said it was easy

2010-03-14T19:23:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

Nothing can stop us now.

You know i love you.

2010-03-12T06:09:00.002+08:00

I dont want to be sitting around telling myself that nothing can be done. If theres something to prove, i guess i have to start somewhere, right?

we.

2010-03-05T13:34:00.003+08:00

i'm thinking what has gotten us this far; & then i realised it was that feeling that did not leave me even for a moment from the day you & i said our first "hello".

2010-02-13T00:50:00.001+08:00

Promise me you'll take good care when im away?

Sigh, i miss you already baby.

2010-02-05T00:36:00.002+08:00

How nice would it be, if the word 'qualm' never existed in the dictionary.

Love says;

2010-01-31T14:45:00.000+08:00

It's impossible to be wise when you're in love.

When love is anything, but.

Boyfriend, i love you no matter what k. ;)

If Yan can cook, so can we!

2010-01-27T02:30:00.000+08:00

We had some whooping fun smokin' Cinta's kitchen with the aroma of Thai Tom Yam.

& so an hour before that we were just sitting around with nothing to do, then me the macam paham girlfriend suggested to the boyfriend, "Baby, i feel like cooking. Masak Tom Yam, yok?" I thought i wanted to back out just as i said those things, but then the boyfriend was already changing into his jeans going, " Ah lah. Yok, macam best eh masak-masak? We go down buy the ingredients, yok?" Okaaay, & then i knew nothing would change his mind until he got that tom yam brewing on his stove.

Let's meet Momo Ramsay & Piej Oliver; nice collaboration eh? HAHA.

Momo Ramsay with a kind heart, even borrowed Piej Oliver his top so as not to let any stains get in his partner's way while cooking. (no wonder she's in love with you)

Momo Ramsay sensei starts cutting up all the ingredient, then dunking everything into the pot. Piej Oliver looks on. Only. :)

Oh. No, he did not spare Piej Oliver. She tries very hard to be a good chef partner tho she know nuts about what cooking is really like.

If cooking isn't Piej Oliver's forte, taking lots of pictures sure is her cup of tea. :D

Smile Momo Ramsay, smile!

Piej Oliver made him snap a picture of her holding the wooden senduk so at least theres like one shot which at least shows her um you know, doing something?

The hot brewing tom yam.

The hot brewing chickies tom yam.

Then we did the food test, we tried the soup a little. It turned out pretty perfect for a first timer. Kudos to Momo Ramsay sensei for your sweat and hardwork & Piej Oliver for your hungry anticipation. Happy Faces after a sumptious Sg made Thai Tom Yam. Sawadeeeekaa~

Love

Whats next baby? Hmm? (flips recipe book)

Love alone matters.

2010-01-25T07:58:00.005+08:00

I would always ask my myself - Why do i love you?.. & the only thing i came up with was the reason to see you smile. Often telling myself i am sensible enough when it comes to love, but somehow all that happens is just a reflection of me being incapable of pulling it off. I am very imperfect but i guess the only thing thats worthy enough of me is my sincerity to love you & to love you, only. Waking up each day knowing that youre just right there, makes my very first second of the day count. I decided on forever when i first saw you; now God, please, make that come true.

Baby, i love you.

I don't need a second to lose

2010-01-24T02:53:00.002+08:00

This angel, God sent from above.
I love you.

i miss you

2010-01-21T10:04:00.004+08:00

I miss you.

I miss your laughter.
I miss your hugs.
I miss your kisses.
I miss your sweet gestures.
I miss you whispering sweet nothings into my ears.
I miss going to Doctor's Room with you.
I miss having your fingers grasping mine.
I miss your cheeky grins.
I miss you cooking for me.

I miss you so much baby.

12o12o1o

2010-01-18T06:44:00.003+08:00

How time flies.

Hello world,

I just turned twenteen one last tues. I had a beautiful birthday, the sweetest i've ever spent with someone so dearest in my life. I cannot have enough thankyous for you baby, for making that night a special one for me. You had a difficult moron to entertain the whole night through but i tell you baby, you make the best companion.

&&&& I have been in love for a year now. We turned a year old just yesterday. (: Somebody skipped hanging out with his buddies to spend again, another night with his one year old love. Thanks baby, again. I love you So Banyak.

Like they always say, " P.s : i love you. "

speaking of love;

2010-01-06T04:16:00.004+08:00

love

you

muhammad hafiz bin musa.

was

just

thinking about you.

right now,

missing you

so badly.

wish

you knew.

010110

2010-01-02T16:00:00.003+08:00

Two, is better than one.

I shant say anymore, its only up to me now. For all the faith you have in me, its my time now. Thank you, Boyfriend. :)

something to say--> Yes you saw that right, its Boyfriend. :))

I already said no.

2009-12-30T13:55:00.003+08:00

Thank you, thank you for having that idea of getting me new ones. (: Youre really sweet. Oh, & i told you im gonna start using 'em right? Wont you just let me? Of course you had a reason why you even gave me those in the first place. Thats how sweet you are, i know it. Dont get me new ones, its not like we have a pair to go along with it. I love you, i want to see you happy, not pretentious kk? ((:

LoveYou.

Youre my reason.

2009-12-30T06:04:00.005+08:00

It came to a point, we dint even know what we're saying to each other; we got so messed up. & all we were trying to put across was the reason why you & i love us.

I don't want anything new. I don't want anything to change. I just want you, happy.

Naughty, naughty Piej.

2009-12-29T03:37:00.002+08:00

I am not a good girl today. I broke your heart. I am sorry. :(

Forgive me Cinta.

Just so you know;

2009-12-28T03:55:00.003+08:00

Really, i am so happy right now. I want this to last. Let's do this together, please?

I love you so, & you know it. (:

I could only do so much.

2009-12-26T03:29:00.002+08:00

I opened my eyes to a whole new experience i've never encountered in my entire life. The struggle of a mother, the desperate attention of her children & the ignorance of mankind. Life is so unfair. :(

I'd never replace a mother, i'd never replace a sister, i'd never replace anything as good as a family but i'm right here for you as i promised; to hold you tight & keep you going. I love you.

Cos you know there's always me for you to fall back on.

Piejalovesyounomatterwhat.

Yummy, please.

2009-12-26T02:35:00.013+08:00

A little trip down to 313 brought us to Cold Rock & we had our very first cold slabs of bubblegum flavoured icecream mixed with strawberries, brownies and marshies. Yummy, i swear. & cos it was with the favourite boy, everything just seem all the more sweeter, dint it? :)

Bubblegum Love. :)

I'm coming to bring us & we together again.

2009-12-26T01:40:00.003+08:00

You & i speak of moments that only says forever. So speak now, don't you keep hush about it.

& if i fall?

2009-12-21T15:43:00.005+08:00

How can i say,

say i'll be okay?

And if i fall through these days that go by without cause

Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own

And if i fall through these nights i cant seem to go on

Just a sign that your with me gives me the strength to hold on

Something to say--> imy.

today's the day, the worst day of my life

2009-12-19T00:20:00.000+08:00

i killed you.

Never say never.

2009-12-18T05:27:00.006+08:00

Because you know, i'll only fall back on you. Not anyone else, ever.

If only i could,
i would rewind the times you & me when we're laughing at each other's silly-ness, your spelling errors & my speech problems.

If only i could,
i would replay all the little games we had just to see who is better at pepsi-cola 123 or even scissorspaperstone.

If only i could,
i would just get back to the time when i'll be lying on your chest looking through your window that peeks into the the clear blue sky with cotton candy clouds all over.

If only i could,
i would reshuffle our mood modes & skip the bad ones past us.

If only i could,
i would pause at the part when youre staring at me loving every counting second while youre with me.

If only i could,

Baby, i swear i would.

you think you knew, but you have no idea

2009-12-15T09:02:00.004+08:00

It's okay to cry sometimes.

point blank

2009-11-28T15:24:00.005+08:00

Dear Tuhan,

If for whatever things happens comes with a reason, wheres the reason for this one?

something to say--> i'm still waiting & hoping for the "running to me crying & hugging me tightly saying you'll never let go again ever" part to happen.

2009-11-23T23:47:00.003+08:00

Zilch.

whengirlmeetsboy

2009-09-29T03:03:00.006+08:00

This innocence, is brilliant. I hope that it will stay.

loveloveloveloveloveloveloveonlyloveyou.

something to say--> "wah, run for nothing!" HA HA!

i miss you, KingLove..

2009-09-23T11:38:00.010+08:00

Baby, i'm sorry for all the tears you've shed. The things you have to go through to see me being happy. For all the little sacrifices to make this a good one for both of us. Things you've been tryna tell me to make me understand, learn about what love is. I appreciate your presence in my life, i really do. Thank you so much for everything babycakes. I love you.

I miss you & i miss us the most.

Something to say--> It's my time.

first 2 third 4 fifth 6 seventh 8, now.

2009-09-17T15:32:00.003+08:00

of special moments & good ol' love.

the only reason i am willing to face another day is knowing that youre just right there, quietly for me.

Find a boy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her...

ive found him.

i love you very much Muhammad Hafiz Musa.

something to say--> merry 8th honeybuns.

err, hello?

2009-08-21T19:56:00.000+08:00

the sim card is currently inactive. please be informed.

got somebody ah, so evil one.

2009-07-29T10:18:00.003+08:00

this one people ah, he very bad one. i is very fanatic. i want to revenge of the fallen with him. i dont care.

something to say--> Cinta Mojojojojo, i love you.

17th was 6th

2009-07-19T05:16:00.002+08:00

i get carried away with my nonsense almost everytime & im pretty lucky to have another half who bothers to entertain them. if this boy is willing to sit through & listen to the most crappiest things that comes out of my mouth, then i think(i hope) he'll also be the one to walk down the aisle with me when the time comes. youre my lesson baby, & every single time i learn to read you proper, youre bringing me a step higher. Cinta isn't just a word for you & me. cos you know Cinta is about us & we. the 17th was splendid baby, thank you so much for the lovely night.

ilovemoleyrex.

something to say--> im looking out for my starboy.

2009-07-16T13:35:00.004+08:00

has it reached your ears yet? about the hunchback old lady who goes around knocking people's door selling keropok or kuih? the one that was said to be keeping the never-not-famous sister ponti & actually piggyback it on her shoulders? i think she rocks my socks. i just heard she has already reach tampines.

amazing. knock my door quick. i need a thrill fix, quick.

something to say--> riight. like understand only.

remember this?

2009-07-11T02:30:00.001+08:00

in this kind of game, you do your best, do alil better. the rest is up to the other party. you have no say. you cant force anyone to succumb to whatever you do.

something to say--> it's our keepsake. where we picked up where we left.

i miss you

2009-07-05T02:26:00.001+08:00

Missing someone isn't about how long it's been since you've seen them last or the amount of time since you last talked.
It's about that very moment when you're doing something & you wish they were right there with you.

C I N T A

2009-07-02T01:54:00.004+08:00

2 months official. 6 months in the making. forever is counting.

something to say-->

wa ala sikit mau bilang sama lu ah.

2009-06-25T05:21:00.001+08:00

Ah. Hallo ah. Amoi. Wa manya sayang sama Cinta wa. Wa no need lu to cakap apa2 sama Cinta wa pasal lu ah. Okay ah? Ah?

something to say--> celeng. pinky yet shitty. eh, redundant siah Piej. Go die.

east coast, yok?

2009-06-25T03:09:00.011+08:00

This was like err, 2 weeks back?

& so the boyfriend had this sudden urge to eat satay from Lagoon at East Coast. Pregnant lar i think, this boy. Hahahaha. Then i suggested roller blading since we were heading there. & also picnic-ing. & also sea-soaking. Aiyah, girl mah. Cannot blame. Macam2 the plan. But then uh, got problem.

No.1 : Cinta knows zero about roller-blading.
No.2 : Cinta has a childhood phobia of sea water.
No.3 : His other half already terkinja-kinja anticipating the above mentioned activity. -.-

Takpe lor, meh sini. Kakak ajar adik okay? Rawrrhahaha!

They call this, the "tangan maintain, muka take-care" stunt.

The lady on the bicycle had to stop & give way to the darling who was struggling to control his balance. Heh heh hah.

Contented me with my fed-up lah sangat Cinta.

We dropped by mac to refill my water bottle with cold, cold water. I dint know they actually allow that. Free somemore.

This part he nervous already. He went near the waters konon want to summon his courage then come back & tell me, "Nevermind lah. Later can. Masih siang ape."

It was so hard to convince him to come into the water. & when he finally did, he walked in till the water only reached his tummy then he said he couldn't go further in cos the water is already up to his shoulders. Walaoey baby. Hahahaha. I love you. I love you.

After about 2 hours of blading & another 2 hours of sea-soaking, we became hungry monsters since the food we brought for the picnic ran out not even halfway through our day. It was time to fulfill the darling's craving for satay at Lagoon.

Cinta extremely love this shot. "Wah baby. Best. Macam ada superpower." Riiiight.

We had not only satay at zee Lagoon but also really fat honey marinated chickies & power to the people stingray with sambal. Oh, & best accompanied with fresh sugarcane with lemon slice. Bayekkkkk.

The day ended perfectly with two bottles of fruit tea cocktail and a pack of kuahcheeee.

Thank you love for the smashing time spent. A first & definitely won't be the last.

I love you so much.

Something to say--> East coast again, yok? :)

i need you, i swear.

2009-06-18T05:34:00.005+08:00

I've realised my mistakes. I don't mean to neglect, i don't mean to not care if that was what you thought. I am very sorry.. Really. & if you would just give me another chance to prove myself worthy of you, i'd show you how much you really mean to me. I have loved you so much, & i am still very much in love with you. Tell you something, it was never easy for me.

Baby, i am truly sorry.

Something to say--> I'm holding on to a thin line with no harness attached. I'll fall once you let go.

4th seventeenth;

2009-05-17T05:43:00.006+08:00

King Love, i must thank you for those lovely shoes you invested for me. I am not really a fan of shoes but they're love at first sight, really really. & the little surprise you did overwhelmed me pretty much so, that i couldn't get over it. :] Thank you Cinta, thank you so much.

For every single day that i've breathed & lived you, i am very sorry for being the toughest girl to please. My mistakes are mountain high, but your patience has only taught me to understand ourselves better. Sweet nothings you whisper into my ears keeps me going, & your hugs never fail to remind me that things aren't so easy to let go off. Not when its with you. Thank you for having me in your life for the past months. We're a step closer to forever now. I love you.

& i want to tell the whole world this:
I HAVE THE SWEETEST BOYFRIEND IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD.

something to say--> we're getting higher everytime that we love.

where did i go wrong?

2009-05-11T02:39:00.005+08:00

Night-night.

Shall you be wrapped in lovely blankets to keep you warm from the cold & let Allah heal your feelings for tonight. InsyAllah.

I Love You.

something to say--> i tried my best.

EffAyDoubleuDeeEchAy

2009-05-09T17:32:00.017+08:00

Friday was fabuloushenaniganetastic. It's a friday date with the FAWDHA girlies. We surprised Wahtee at her doorstep cos the poor baby wasn't feeling well. Then there were only the five of us. Everything was good and nice and everything i think, to the point even Wahtee couldn't stand missing out on the fun so she actually dragged her sick butt to Eastpoint just to accompany us eat at Banquet & also where we did another little surprise for Hidie as well & finally then made our move to Arab Street for a good long heh heh hah hah session.

WARNING!: SWINE-HEAVY IMAGE UPLOAD

something to say--> Drunk with laughter & dizzy with love. Not to forget, being dragon wannabehs. HAHAHAHAHA.

there-is-no-link-anywhere

2009-05-07T04:22:00.000+08:00

For my darling from the Milky Way;

thankiyukzomaj por zee blaikfeest zees mawwwsniiis. hotzkeks issey bellies naaais. starioyo lobs yuh zo maj. zee day issey horwehs loberly iffah yuh izz horwehs zeh.

Boyfriend, if you don't paham, no Jiwa Alienation with me. (actually, for sleeping early tonight, this is punishment for you. hahahahahaha. i love you baby)

Extra!Extra!:

There's an outing with the Fawdha lovelies this coming Friday. I. Cannot. Wait.
No red polo & baggy grey pants shifts this week. Moronic. No income. Next week must work like alot alot already.
Piej is growing horizontal, very very quickly. (Mayday, Mayday!)
Chins up Buttercup, no man shall make you feel small in any way, ever.
Cousin Nazilla, shake, shake, just shake, shake, Shake Alba! :)
I just switched off the telebeeshen after watching this funny sitcom "Perfect Stranger" with a bowl of maggie curry.

something to say--> i miss the Sleeping Boyfie. :(

seventeen can't wait, we'll have the first.

2009-05-04T03:59:00.004+08:00

Well........

It's official. (:

About a week or two ago, i was given the place and time for a little special date that was supposed to take place on a perfect-weathered Friday. Days coming to it, no one talked about anything and i thought things were not gonna happen anyway. & for a sleepless Thursday, i woke up really early on Friday for i don't know what reason. Prolly i was like still hoping for a little meet up if not a proper special date like he mentioned. We did meet for awhile in the end & i went home then feeling excited with another timing to follow for the special date to finally happen. :) Met King Love again for dinner at FoodCulture. He came with company- a big purple box with a big purple ribbon and big white band securing it. Had the favourite hot&spicy noodle soup which i think is becoming his as well. Nyeh heh. Talked a little over dinner & decided to head to pasir ris park for a stroll down the beach since time dint permit us to go any further than east area.
A short distance walk from white sands to pasir ris park almost killed me. I complained so much till i got so thirsty. Padan muka saya. We grabbed ourselves CoffeeBean & headed straight into pasir ris park & settled down at this huge rock, the tallest at this open space. Enough for two. The place was beautiful, we were right beneath the stars. He took my hand & asked if i wanted to see the content of the box. I nodded & he passed me the purple box. I noticed the white band around the box & i asked, "Eh, this rubber thing is the band we use for making pants, the waist area stretchable right?" Mangkuk seh the friend face. HAHAHAHA. But i thought it was kinda creative actually. & before i opened the box, he mentioned something like he's been keeping the content for four years now & he has chosen the one he wanted to give it to. Suddenly macam like ade pressure sit on my shoulder. I opened the box & my jaw dropped. It was the sweetest light purple traditional costume i've ever seen. & the other contents included a photo of Cinta& a red card full of love.
Now this part must slow down abit. This boy ah, i think he nervous or what ah. He rattled off like as if he was running after some train to Joo Koon.

KingLove: "Um, Baby... um.. I want you to know that i love your presence in my life. & i have decided i want to spend all the time i have with you. I want to take good care of you. I want to be yours. Remember i said i was gonna wait for another 17th? I can't. I want this to happen tonight already. I want you to be mine. Um, Baby, um.. Will you be mine? Will you be the girl to wear this with me when the day comes?"

I cried leh. Macam like so taaaaaaching.

& then the No.1 Sleeping Queen whispered, "Yes.."

KingLove: OHMYGOD. I LOVE YOU BABY. (i got the tightest and the most relieved hug from him that night)

The rest.. was good lovin' history.

I love you so much, Boyfriend. I will do my best & take good care of you to the best of my ability.

Something to say--> Now tell me, is that feeling good or whaaat. :)

of yester's with today's

2009-05-01T03:20:00.003+08:00

King Love fetched his No.1 Sleeping Queen yesterday from the messy toy store looking as stunning as ever. oh my good. (melts to no end) the hiccups were moronic but he made it up real nice. ebony black wasnt planned but it was all good, eh? yeh heh. last night was lovelehhh baby. thankiyuk. :)

meet joe, & now meet joenah.

good lovin'

here's one for me

& back at you baby

& today, work was the usual crap. & work always means Piej being late all the time, getting reprimanded all the time, being hungry all the time, missing the lovely one all the time. & i had Syahidah to entertain my poppycock self. like its been awhile i saw this babe.

&&&&& i miss working with the sweetest Azlin as much as i miss just sitting down hanging around with her. :(

also today, Cinta dropped by the crib to pass Nenek buahplihkuini(?). whatever the fruit's name. moral of the story, i am just glad to know you had a blasting good time with the family. even without me around, chih! haha. okayokay, i love you.

something to say--> is you making this happen for us, like for real, for real?

hello, baby?

2009-04-29T01:55:00.004+08:00

baby,
thank you for dropping by, see smellys smellys me.
thank you for your endless rindu texts, at school, anywhere.
thank you for your company today. sweet.
thank you for having me, all the time. :)
thank you for the sweetest milo(funny, like you knew i wanted it though i dint ask for it). hoho.
thank you for loving me, this much(makes big big hand gesture). can see?
thank you so much for the little things you do for me, like make me become mangkuk with all your silly but sumpah very cute attitude. okay? haha.

just so you know, i loved you more today.

something to say--> patience is virtue. & baby, quit jamming your knuckles into the wall please.

let's be okay tomorrow?

2009-04-28T02:50:00.007+08:00

oh dear. :(
i got my prince so upset with me.
& right now i am feeling so stupid.
because i miss you.
i miss you so much.

i'm sorry, please Cinta?

something to say--> i love you baby, night-night.

to you, my dearest girlfriend.

2009-04-25T23:20:00.004+08:00

How do i tell you what's been going on without hurting your feelings or rather just help you end it without you having to regret about anything at all? Because its a sin im keeping this from you and its eating up my conscience so badly.

something to say--> God, please help. :(

story of a glutton and the weird, weird one

2009-04-25T02:59:00.004+08:00

& i was looking through today's picture updates at Cinta's blogsite and i just realised im a big fat glutton. chett, just realised. not shy, not shy. its disgusting, the way i eat. and i have also realised that my other half is not a glutton but is as weird as an alien from space. he stucks mac donald's golden, crispy, tender on the inside french fries, into his nose. awesome or what? -.- but hell, who wouldn't after spending about close to 200dolas within mere minutes.

baby, thanks for thy treats. you is make my day round round. and i love you like alot alot.

something to say--> & i miss you already.

ghetto lovin'

2009-04-22T04:00:00.005+08:00

my hantu had his haircut to prepare himself for sekooooooooooooolah. & he hated the haircut so much, he called himself the full-time malay ahbeng. i told him it wasnt so bad, and he went like, "you see, later people come up to you say, eh Fizah another guy already uh? the other time the fella hair long long cannot see face, now some gangster uh?" tough tryna tell him everything is alright. tough tryna convince him its okay. last resort i said, "ey moron. i love it lar. make me horny. bad boy look. (makes moron face)" HAHAHAHA. i am not sorry for saying that cos all i got was a whack on my 6.7kilo arms. grrr.

before: the curtain hair look. after: the fanatic malay ahbeng look.

fierce kahper, Abang?!? HA HA HA HA.

i dont care okay moron mountain. youre still the big bully i know. makes no difference lor. but i love you all the same. cinta, cinta, cinta.

you,

im not one who please, im sorry for all i did. im trying to be a better person and hoping you could see. as blessed i am, its not easy without you. i miss you.

something to say--> "life without a friend is like death without witness."

sugarsugar, how you get so fly?

2009-04-19T20:12:00.006+08:00

I’m in love with you, the way i wanted to.

the best breakfast & the best hospitality at a loved one’s;

Cinta made my day a pretty one with special breakfast for two- scrambled peppered egg, with beef patties and many many many nuggets. Super sedap & super pedas chilli sauce. We had mango juice for thirst quenching. Yummeh! Nooot only that, in the later hours, the babyboy fed me with Plaincrackers, whitebread with Nutella and Skippy, Starbucks Mocha Frap, Crispy noodle and what not. Plus 4.5 kilo. Saaaaap. Gemukstuff.

Movie marathon was crazy. Silent Hill; stupid movie, stupid satan kepala covered with triangular baldi besi, groping all over cos you cannot bloody see. No purpose uh your director, sumpah. Blade ³; super stupid movie, Adam look alike, then the shades never come off even though his head got slammed, even though he was thrown from a wall against another, && even though he was bitch slapped by vampires. The hair, jackpot. Classic Flat Top. Macam like nabei already the face. Bibir one kilo. Enjoy. Scary movie4; lagi bongok. The ju-on boy, the viagra incident, the girl who went, “my eyes.. my eyes”, the Mrs North(when its actually Mrs Noris. blame the stupid subtitle). I laughed till i teared. I laughed till my chest hurts. I laughed till the darling thinks im crazy. The best part, two of the movies we watched, replayed another whole round. Baguuus. (winks)

Eh no, that one still okay. Event highlight of the day: seluar koyak rabak besar mati tanak. Yessaaa. Ask lar koyak where? It was right under my flower. (makes face) The saviour is of course my high metabolism rate prince, none other than Apit Musa. :] i love you baby. & i thought the pants couldn’t fit at first. Lucky stretchable. Hahahahaha.

Thankiyuk so much Cinta for that day. It felt really good when you whispered sweet nothings into my ears, cuddled me like a little girl, made me feel right at home with your warmness. I love you so much sweetest bacheen, i do.

something to say--> & we've past the 3rd 17th babycakes. (:
♥ always.

bind me, then electrify me. now.

2009-04-14T04:23:00.005+08:00

when Narbeilisma strikes;

asjefdklnasfvjnasdvjsadnbvjhbaejvkdbvjdfabnujreakbbvjkbvjhzbvajdhjafnjbfbqif

breathe Piej, breathe.

no, cannot.

AHUOHDJASJKFBHABFJAWBGVJKBAVRKJBVRH;ABKJBVUIAVBIU;BGVUABGJK;BKJB.

OR JUST FUCKING GET ME A PUNCHING BAG, SOMEBODY!??!?!

something to say--> i need anger management. help.

its made of lovebugs and alienation

2009-04-11T02:01:00.006+08:00

and yes, yes, yes. i miss you my man.

something to say--> cause you, a feeling i can't deny.

of birthday wishes and blissful life.

2009-04-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

5th April 2009
the macam-like-boy-already-babysis turns 10.

the all-time-favourite-self-proclaimed-walking-sofa turns 19(hehehehe).

8th April 2009
Azlin's pretty love turns 20.

9th April 2009
the biiig baby brother turns 19.

10th April 2009
Nadres turns 21!

plus one now. its not so bad, is it? (: Happy Birthday many many yousss. May you be blessed with every single breath you take. Amin.

and so i want to let you know that i am totally loving my life right now. i have the best people in the world living this life with me. and for all that you hate, God is fair, always.
now please excuse me, i have a life to live.

something to say--> hello sweet world.

my sugarrush companion

2009-04-03T23:55:00.005+08:00

the favourite boy

i went out with this monkey who wouldnt stop harassing me till i finally headed home. eh hello Cinta, you think funny is it, scaring the shit out of me with your jeepers creepers face? you wait, you wait. although a little monkey, this darling of mine has a forte of being the sweetest moron you can ever find. i l o v e. thank you for the company today. thank you for having me today. thank you for your love today. now everybody, how do you pronounce 'scrool'? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. BACK AT YA BABY. (inserts satisfied face)

something to say--> yes yes.. i still love you lar mangkuk. hahaha.

2009-04-03T23:19:00.005+08:00

dont fucking talk about me if you dont fucking know nuts about me. you disgust me like fuck. wah piang, i very angry siaaaah.

something to say--> fuck you. oh, please pardon the profanities.

boy, your love is like a nuclear weapon

2009-04-01T16:30:00.002+08:00

i fell in love with the boy who makes me squirm in my seat listening to his voice, who makes me laugh my head off with his antics, who kisses my forehead every few minutes, who has messymessy hair when he’s excited, who has cold hands and feet, who is my favourite murderer, who holds me close to make me feel special. he, who is the next best thing to being a perfect match.

i love you, cinta.

something to say--> cause my love is a soldier and my heart is a grenade.

trooot tooot trrandom tooot.

2009-03-18T17:42:00.006+08:00

i spent my pretty afternoon yesterday with this pretty girl that ive missed for the longest time ever. yesterday was fun. lets be kicking more strangers' chair in time to come. (winks)

Cinta was earlier part of the pretty afternoon. short one but triple fun. (winkswinks) a 'we' motto : no, we dont give two flying fucks about you. hahahahahahahahaha. two months now.

and currently at 5.58pm on a lazy wednesday afternoon, im getting ready to meet the girls. been two weeks and hell, i missed us like crazy. a very promising night of laughter and more laughter. (:

something to say--> the sun is about to set.

cold story

2009-03-09T15:55:00.003+08:00

this pinch in the heart. this heartbreak. i dont want to keep lying to myself. God please, help me out here.

something to say--> not going anywhere.

eat-it-it

2009-03-05T21:15:00.005+08:00

i had my bloody valentine for late lunch with my girls yesterday. the movie was bloody sick. literally bloody sick. the nudity, the gore, the estranged. ah, and yes the twist, the twist of the story. oh, & the stupid 3D glasses. HAHAHA.

today's lunch was successful appeal(Alhamdulillah) with chix drumlets & nuggets && cheesy frank. minus pork punk'd-ing. late lunch snack; yummeh hershey's pie. courtesy of cinta's mama, thankiyuk. (: then dinner was a mountain of mama's mee goreng with the cousin and sweet sweet cupcake by yummyumkins. courtesy of the lovely cousin. supper, was with my usual gerek kaki, nenek. too nauseating to mention. erk.

okayokay, i'll stop already.

oh oh wait, ive a ghost. ice cream stealer calls him hantu. and my hantu is out fishing. stay warm cinta, its a cold weather.

something to say--> your return's are blessed with your shit that you put up.

2009-03-04T20:12:00.002+08:00

God, i am so wrong.

something to say--> for every prick, theres always a plaster.

eh?

2009-03-04T15:04:00.003+08:00

suddenly, everything seemed clean. & brighter i think? did the janitor just dropped by or something?

something to say--> steal cookies, steal Ben&Jerry's. steal, steal, steal.

friday snippet

2009-03-01T13:07:00.005+08:00

i remember a friday. a tired friday. i felt welcome with the warmest gesture. a less than half and hour movie marathon was all it took to lull me to sleep. woke up and i saw a brewing blue cup of hot milo waiting for me and beside it was my barista smiling wildy, eh!!! smiling widely i mean, looking at me. "take your time to drink it up baby, its still very hot." sweetest ive tasted second to the one ive always had at my all -time favourite coffee shop. like the bestie always said, "its done with love. sedaaap kepee" thank you cinta for your warmest hospitality though i was irritating sleeping and prolly snoring like babi and you had no company. love.

something to say--> see that box aligned on the left? its getting alil too much don't you think?

a hungry woman is an angry woman

2009-02-22T16:15:00.006+08:00

lying face down in the comfort of cousin's bed, i am thinking. thinking about food. blardy hell. hungry siaaaa.

something to say--> madison's super sandwich, for two please.

cinta. love. cinta.

2009-02-20T01:31:00.005+08:00

i miss you cinta.

something to say--> count 7 bright + a million others twinkling back at you.

2009-02-15T16:09:00.004+08:00

my heartstrings;
tugged and pulled.
twisted and knotted.

i need a coupla sweetstuffs to keep me going.

courage does not always soar,
sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying,
"i will try again tomorrow."

something to say--> really, its just a matter of time.

because the right words came out left

2009-02-13T16:56:00.003+08:00

and it'd be the most perfect day of my life to just sit back and look at the stars through a telescope scooping into tubs of ben&jerry's ice cream with home-made brownie.

something to say--> just you and me.

its crazy, i tell you

2009-02-02T21:01:00.002+08:00

hopeless, head over heels in the moment.

something to say--> woo-woo.

naing-teeng yek ol'

2009-02-02T20:27:00.004+08:00

here's to the lovely one, Nazilla.

HAPPY 19TH, YOU, on the 30th of January.
i love you very strong cousin.
be a good girl, work hard, study hard and dont break Cik Besar's heart.
okeh deh?
lu sula manya busaaaa.

something to say--> GUESS what her present was. i hope you loved it babe. (:

this love is difficult, but its real

2009-01-26T21:38:00.002+08:00

whats happiness to some, is hardcore sadness to others.

something to say--> i blew it.

hold tight

2009-01-25T15:40:00.010+08:00

Im like a bird and I am so high In my lair looking at the blue sky Cant let another day pass by Without you knowing what I feel inside Cause its embedded in my soul The day I stop will be the day I turn cold Let you know I'm breaking out of that hole And let go.

So I can be free To do what means most to me And you can look back one day and know I shared with you my gift I hope you wouldnt think I just leave Pack up and roll up my sleeve Give it all up and live for nothing to take with me all I got to give

So if your life is twisted and ain't going right Let's forget about it tonight I just want to make you happy baby Dancing and clapping (dancin' and clappin') Cause we plan to be here till the morning light Can you feel the change in your life And it feeling like magic baby I'm the one that make it happen baby.

something to say--> i just wanna make you clap again.

say, we do it again sometimes?

2009-01-23T17:50:00.004+08:00

slurp slurp of the mee kuah.
2 dots of orange stain on the blouse.
chit chat with them lovelies.
mini shopping at square pasar.

ive completed my afternoon. (:

something to say--> of contented days and happy endings

nowhere

2009-01-22T02:05:00.004+08:00

just so you know;

my head is spinning.

my heart hurts terribly.

you just wont stop.

you keep rubbing it in.

pause, please?

i need a break.

something to say--> take me up there.

twenteen-age girl

2009-01-13T22:44:00.000+08:00

i just turned twenteen(haha!) yesterday. god, bless my soul.

this calls for a celebration!...... not. so tua riiight.

something to say--> scrutinise the picture above. something's missing. haahaa.

two zero? no nice.

2009-01-05T03:09:00.004+08:00

just a girl, just an ordinary girl;
just trying to get by.

something to say--> counting the days.

(sigh)

2008-12-28T16:14:00.002+08:00

now I'm hoping just a little bit stronger

hold me up just a little bit longer

i'll be fine, I swear

i'm just gone beyond repair

something to say--> baby, please.

hello world.

2008-12-26T01:21:00.005+08:00

ive lost touch with the cyberworld for a good 4, 5 weeks? boy, do i miss the sound of my creaky keyboard and this blinding colourless monitor of mine. pardon me, this is old school stuff mann.

and.... its almost the new year, ive yet to list the resolutions, get birthday gifts for them lovelies, prepare to turn moronic 20 year old and yada yada yada..

i dont see a bright 2009. and its funny how i think that ive wasted the last of my 2008 days slaving out at the greatest toys store. -.-

something to say--> i have no more strength to stay away from you any longer.

PLEASE KEEP CLEAR

2008-11-16T13:43:00.004+08:00

wah.. emotional wreck.

something to say--> and they all fall down.

cause this and that, and this and that

2008-11-11T22:59:00.005+08:00

because Abu's in boys home, we're worried sick. then Ali hasnt got any friends to hang out with except those moron amuk-lovers. Adi's left hanging and Sofie.. Zarul doesnt end.

because Rajes irritates, i shall find myself one day, just one fine day when im early for class, to strip her off her garments and hang her up at the projector screen.

because school is a bore, we turn the smallest things into a big fat joke that got all of us burping with laughter. no need "pizzahut" chicken already. eh, no. cannot no pizzahut chicken.

because im still living in fantasy, you, yes you that boy whose wearing that army uniform; shall succumb to all my demands. i think i mentioned before, next stop - Sofraaaaaaaaaaa.

because youre staying in Jakarta and me in Singapore; we'll leave our love till next time if youre coming by again. oh bytheway Pasha, i love you more on the 31st of Oct.

because you, and i know whats been going around.

something to say--> time for cookies. bye.

this is just how i roll

2008-10-24T00:17:00.000+08:00

no, it doesnt feel wrong. it never felt wrong.

cos im of your kind, i know how you feel.

sometimes they say, dont just know. understand.

something to say--> give love plenty of room to sit in

hippie ah ma

2008-10-13T21:57:00.005+08:00

check this out. hehehe.

something to say--> she's a bully victim. meh heh heh.

hmm, yeah.

2008-10-12T13:32:00.004+08:00

i'd

have
understood
if
you
told
me
your
cat
died.

something to say--> simple.

isnt it?

2008-10-10T19:34:00.003+08:00

a day hasnt passed without a sigh in my heart.
now you tell me, dont you think i had enough already?

something to say--> when its time im happy, just let me be.

i say no, no.

2008-10-03T12:03:00.004+08:00

i was kept in the dark. and now i see the light. God please, dont let this be true. tell me my teen years wasnt a lie. tell me i lived in this world for whom is the most important in my life.

im afraid of the truth.

the truth, that will hurt and destroy.

Astaghfirullah..

something to say--> till then.

'cos i am only human

2008-10-03T08:12:00.003+08:00

something to say--> and i have feelings too.

bless my soul

2008-09-18T01:45:00.007+08:00

because now i think its not too late; its never too late.
yayy. mama's good. ayah's good. that wraps up the entire thing. im a happy poppycock already. im healing pretty fast; both the mind and the soul... oh, and the body too. :) retail therapy works, antibiotics are a fuss, painkillers make my day. im full of lovin'.

i thought i'd like to paste pictures today.

my favourite girls.

they've seen through me. emotionally and... err physically? haha.

they make up half of happypills.

we thought high-waisted was cool, but then i think.. we were trying alil too hard. suddenly we resemble the Isetan staffs. ma ha ha.

i miss you. :'(

a perfect 20th birthday gift. somebody? :D

and you mister. you owe me big time. and i really mean

B I G T I M E.

&& what? i just told Watie i wanted to become a successful Doctor with both very experienced hands-on and theoretical ability? (does reality check: slapping fiesta on face)

something to say--> im uncontactable meantime. hp's in coma. brb in 2days i hope?

isnt the best in the world

2008-09-14T23:19:00.002+08:00

i will never see cars with the sign "T A X I" the same again. grrrrr.

you, im sorry ive been really difficult.

something to say--> now wheres my tic tac?

"i told you not to fall in love with me."

2008-09-11T20:09:00.002+08:00

Everybody, put up your hands

Say,

"I don't wanna be in love,

I don't wanna be in love."

something to say--> it's okay, let it go.

syawla evol

2008-09-07T06:39:00.001+08:00

love is always patient and kind;

it is never jealous.

love is never boastful nor conceded;

it is never rude or selfish.

it does not take offence and it is not resentful.

love takes no pleasure in other people's sins;

but delights in the truth.

it is always ready;

to excuse,

to trust,

to hope

and to endure whatever comes.

something to say--> take the risk. dare to move. love, is a leap of faith.